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At the brink of…. FREEDOM

Thursday, March 13th, 2008 | General

I am almost euphoric. I dreamed of this day- or at least about two days from now.
I have tomorrow and Saturday. That will conclude the last 19 months of school.

I have to be almost in awe and almost nostalgic in reflecting over the last 19 months.

This MBA has been the culprit of hazardous emissions; my blood, sweat and most overflowing tears.

This past week has been more than painful. But nothing a few scotch and soda’s cannot solve, which I am enjoying presently , since I was able to take tomorrow off as a “health day”. I really needed a drink tonight. Oh I am so enjoying it too.

I remember seeing the MBA students getting ready for their final day of presentation, a year ago from Saturday. I admired and worshipped them. Them in their achievement and glory. They looked years from me in integrity and experience. To think I could stand steady in their shoes today. It’s humbling.

We printed out our 35 + page business plan. We rehearsed our presentation about 3 times this evening. Once with an actual audience member who gave us admirable feedback. I think we are ready.

I am blessed to have been able to have the wonderful support I have had in friends, co-workers, previous co-workers, family, but especially Ry. He’s been my rock, my Saviour. When I thought I couldn’t deal with this any longer, when all hope was stripped of me or all self-esteem and endurance wrung dry from me. I had Ry. Thank you, love of my life.

Thank you friends, friends who have stayed with me, cheering me on, when I thought I had already lost. Aubs, Snooks, Ghost dog, Linnaea, Miranda, Heidi, Lindamom, dad, Brother, sister, Bellalove, tomasybella, Wendy, Jason, Jenn, Susan, Laura… gosh I could go on and on. How blessed am I to have such a great network of friends.
It’s a battle. It’s a battle of determination, willpower, endurance and faith. I appreciate so much of the cheers and reinforcement.

I have to also mention how much I have appreciated working with my business plan partners. They are what have made me want to contribute and want to carry above and beyond my weight. Each of us shared an equal part in the business plan and now in the presentation. They are godsends. I was soo incredibly fortunate to have joined them when I was jobless. They are both CU employees and with that come some serious perks. I truly appreciate those perks now!
I hear stories of other classmates teaming up with partners who have either not followed through on their responsibilities or just plain don’t care to go the extra mile to see that their business plan is “rockstar” material.

I have compromised a lot of life’s luxuries, I have compromised american life milestones, typical rights of passage during this time, just to receive a degree that says MBA. I once believed it would get me to the next level in my job, but when the job told me good-bye, I persevered. Thank you, Ry.
So, thank you. Thank you to you friends who read my blog, who care about my world, my life and have supported me. I know without you, I would feel less affirmation and possibly less accomplished.

I’m a very “S” person in the “disc” analysis. So much of my social world can dictate my decisions because I continue to strive to “belong” to something.

Thanks for helping me feel like I belong! There have been a sense of friendships that I once had, that are now sort of compromised. It’s just a matter of making sure the connection happens and is sustained. In this process I am afraid I lost some connections and that makes me very sad.
Life continues. I still love the friends I don’t see, and I would simply adore looking forward to seeing the friends that I can see.

So, dear friends, if you are around in Portland, need a drink, come and celebrate with My King and I (Ry & I) at The Kennedy School. Saturday evening. 7:00pm or so. I will be enjoying more scotch and soda’s or just any liquor I can get my hands on, because, I my friends… I am getting DRUNK!

Yes, this admirable and noteworthy, full of integrity MBA student soon to be graduate is putting crap to the wind and imbibing, because gosh darnit! I deserve it!

:)Thanks for the last 19 months. Here’s to FREEDOM (just think of the George Michael’s song “Freedom” )

CHEERS

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