Time for Change….
Friday, March 9th, 2007 | General
Well I guess it is about that time. Time for change, time for a new beginning, time for opportunities to present themselves… let’s see is there a theme here?
To me, I am a person although to the mega company I dedicated 6+ years to, to them, I am just another number in their financial statements, and now they’ll be all the better, I am supposed to think anyway by telling me good bye.
I had a feeling in my gut all week, you know that overwhelmed sort of sense that in order to get everything done you need to get done, something will have to change. Well, so maybe I asked for this? Maybe I was so fed up with the pieces in my work world I made this happen through the power of my mind. Well, either way it still doesn’t negate the emotional disfunction this kind of thing can cause.
I have to say I have the best of friends anyone could ask for. I sent a message out to my dearest of friends and I have received nothing but heartwarming, sincerely concerned and emotionally comforting messages back. Thank you to my friends, I couldn’t appropriately commisserate yet be ready to jump on the next opportunity without you.
I know Ryan expresses himself far more vindictively such as the circusgeek blog now saying to buy AMD, well, his love, support and empathy are keeping me going. Thank you R.
I think what will be hardest is saying good bye to the wonderfully talented people I’ve been able to work with over the past 6+ years. I have learned so much and have grown so much and have appreciated who they are far beyond the cube walls of work and I genuinely adore the time spent together. I hope to keep in touch with them, but right now is the hardest time to be in the office, so my excuse is well I’m in my PJ’s nursing a nice hangover I willingly inflicted on myself, as what does a person do when they lose their job- they go get drunk and if there is good beer to get drunk on.. well hey I am there. Ending the evening at Moon & Sixpence just reaffirmed my commitment to drinking loads of good beer being, Guinness, Smithwicks and Boddingtons… glorious.
Although the drinking did start early and at Kells… I mean what better time to head to a pub then after you get canned and it’s the daytime (2pm) and well a beer is in order and Kells was dead, that’s not often so I took advantage. I was just incredibly surprised that they didn’t have a proper 20 oz. pint, and at $5. There just wasn’t anything right about that. So we popped over to next door at The Thirsty Lion, where they have the 20oz. glasses, but not the classic imperial pint I so love. But my cravings were in light as the plan was to meet R’s bro T at Moon and there will be my perfect vessel to which I can null the disoriented and emotionally confused state I came to be in after “the news”.
The best part has been the talking. Talking about opportunities, talking about the whys and why nots and just talking to people and realizing, wow I can actually focus on school and the irony of learning that my current MBA proffessor is also being ”redeployed”. What that means? Well, unfortunately, nothing for us, as all papers are still due, all presentations are still due and the in class essay will be due as well. What a crazy, crazy time.
Ah but more beer lies ahead for to Rose & Thistle with some wonderful friends is what is ahead for this eve. Last night was just the beginning. I’m sure I will make great efforts to be better to myself tonight, but then tomorrow is Saturday. 
I just still have a 12 page paper due on Monday along with a few job prospects.
I firmly do believe with all change lies opportunities! Thanks to all for your kind words and substantial love and encouragement. I adore you.
3 Comments to Time for Change….
Beck and I were bummed about the whole thing. I’m still a little peeved at the effin’ company. Sorry I didn’t see your email about where you’d be until the day after. 
See you guys on St. Patrick’s Day. I’ll be late (if I get to do First Responder training with the Patrol), but hopefully in the mood to full-on party (if I pass).
JennMarch 12, 2007
You’re gonna land in a great place. My thoughts are with you! Beer soon to celebrate your freedom, k?
GD: Hey, no worries we’ll throw back a few at St. Patty’s, the tough decisions lie ahead. My theme song is “Should I stay or should I go” -the clash.
Jenn:
You are a gem. Thank you so much for your tremendous empathy and sincerest concern. I appreciate it. We’ll definitely have to share over a beer sometime soon.
Thanks.
March 12, 2007